A few weeks ago I turned 45. Yesterday was my wedding anniversary for my first marriage. I would have been married 27 years. Really can I be that old? Part of me is truly amazed that I made to 45. I have definantly took my chances and have scars to prove it. Ok I took chances when I was younger. Now I have let fear set in and dont take many anymore. For whatever reason I have a harder time with the 5's than the 0's. I have had a really hard time to adjusting to being 45. Maybe because I feel so much older and feel like I have lived many more life experiences than a lot of people my age.
When I was 18 and just starting out. I had my life all planned out. Get married be a mom, live in a house with a white picket fence, a dog, a cat and a couple of kids. The kids would grow up, go to college, move out, get married, and they would have kids. No where in the plans did it include becoming a widow, being a single parent, getting married again, adopting his kids, losing a child and having my 23 year old still live with me. My plans were not God's plans. In most cases I am glad God overruled my plans. My life is crazy and tiresome but most things I have lived through I would do it over again.
I still think 45 is old yes even if you are one of my friends that are the same age and are in denial. We are old but we are getting better with every year.
